Can't Wait for Summer

So bad. I want summer to be here now. I want to be able to go to the beach everyday of my life. That would be amazing.

I just watched this movie on IFC called Next Stop to Wonderland (or atleast I think that's what it's called). There was this really good point in it about a daily ritual of marveling at the beauty of one thing everyday. This act of just thinking and, in a way meditating, in order to gain inspiration for life... very IFC-ish kind of movie.

Another weird off topic thing. I had a dream that in my right eye, these weird yellowish gouey things were growing on it. So I went to the bathroom, and began washing them and taking them out of my eye. Then my eye became all cloudy and grey/blue. It was as if I was going blind in my right eye. Such a weird feeling.

This break hasn't been really relaxing. I still have soo many things to do and worry about. Get a resume done, finish an assessment, read for humanities, prepare for the Ring of Fire event, begin to memorize my lines, finish the scholarship application....lotsa work.

Ugh..I don't want to think about it.

New Face
This is the new face of my blog. Nothing has really changed, but I figured since my e-mail hasn't changed since 6th grade, then something should.

I'm excited hearing about all these seniors getting into "college acceptance/rejection mode". It's like reliving it again. It mattered so much at the time, but once the decision had been made, all we could do was have faith that no matter where we were, we'd do our best and experience all that we could. For most of us, I think this has held true. Don't stress too much about where you are going, because all in all, it's what you make of it.

I really need to start sleeping at a normal time. Too much time staying up has definitely affected my health.

I hope the weather gets better. It's shrimp bread time tomorrow!!! GENIUS!

Ok. So I can't sleep.
"Three" Survey
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Kim
2. Keeyum
3. Kimmy
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Kimmygirl
2. Pinkypinks86
3. i can't remember
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my dimples/ fat cheeks (I make myself sound so attractive)
2. how I laugh really easily
3. how i'm inconsistent (too troublesome to try to be consistent)
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. All I have to say is: I'm fantastic
2. I'm fantastic
3. I'm fantastic
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Chinese
2. American
3. Some random Bulgarian Dutch stuff
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Too much HUM!!!
2. failing
3. loosing sight of what's really important
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Washing/cleaning myself
2. a good book
3. a decent conversation
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. comfy sweater
2. boxers
3. my cool glasses (oh yeah)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS:
1. Billie Holiday
2. Led Zeppelin
3. Norah Jones
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Banana Pancakes (Jack Johnson)
2. 500 miles
3. Don't worry...Be happy
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. waking up early enough to see the sunrise
2. doing my work when I should
3. use the gym more then 2 times a week
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I have a painting from the FIRST first lady of Taiwan
2. Summer is my favorite season
3. I really love Paris Hilton (haha)
THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1.sense of humor (so HOT)
2. values
3. charisma
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. reach the rim of the basketball hoop (I've tried)
2. chemistry
3. sit around and do nothing
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. reading
2. movies
3. making things
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. be able to sleep
2. see my favorite people
3. be a doctor already so I can give free medical care to kids in 3rd world countries
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. pediatrician
2. teacher
3. some sort of social worker or event planner
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Hawaii
2. New Zealand
3. China
THREE KIDS' NAMES:
1. Claire
2. Tyler (girl's name)
3. Joseph
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Scuba dive in the most beautiful parts of the ocean
2. be able to wake up and walk right onto the beach
3. see my children be happy with their lives

Sometimes the more stressed you are, the more you realize there's no reason to be stressed.

I hope I never become one of those people guided by their clocks and schedules. Worried about the hours ticking away or the days crossed off of their calendars. Gone...yeah I know. But I mean why worry about something that's gone.

You know what? I don't ever say this, but I love hearing people talk about their beliefs. Just listening in on the different kinds of perspectives of faith or even lack of faith, and how it can fulfill a person so much. Some may gain this fulfillment in different ways. Listening and understanding these things help me realize even even moreso what I really believe. They may be different, but I don't think that everyone should think like me.

And the whole "wasting your life in conflict" is so true. People need to take a chill pill and not hate so much. Hate and anger eat away at your heart, when you really don't deserve it. Take care of your heart.