Great Expectations

Expectations can kill.

They make or break a person. I mean if you never expect anything out of yourself, who's to say you couldn't have been some sort of rocket scientist. But expectations coming from others? WTF mate...WTF.

Seriously though. We all say "you don't know me at all", then why the heck do you think that you know everything about someone else. As long as it's not me, right?. It's always someone else's problem. I guess it's another form of NIMBY [not in my back yard].


I guess since I started off negative, why not end that way as well.

I do not understand why people sit there and complain without doing anything about it. Can you explain that to me? It's like sitting in a cold room with the door open while it's snowing out, and going.... "it's so f-f-f-reaking c-c-cold". Get your butt up and close the door! Is it that hard?

Sometimes it's like I do all this work for nothing. Just today, someone was like...oh man you gotta take a class for ASB? I didn't know you needed to take a class to learn how to make signs. Yeah it was funny but, sorry. Do you know how much stuff would never happen if there was no ASB?? You like dances right?? Who do you think runs them? You like Link Crew right?? Who runs that? You buy stuff at the student store right? Yeah ASB runs that too, and no they don't get paid like the kids in the cafeteria. But they do it anyway.

I told this kid I was a philanthropist. And I guess I am, but sometimes I sit back and ask myself why the heck am I doing this? No one even cares. It's like I'd rather not try to do anything instead of making an effort to, and then getting criticized. If you don't like the way things are done, stand up for yourself and speak up. Change it yourself.

And this isn't even about ASB. It's just about me trying to do stuff on campus, and trying to give people opportunities to do new things, and learn new things. I mean isn't that what life's about? Oh. No. I'm sorry. It's about partying, drinking, making an ass out of yourself. Because we're young right? We don't have to act like adults right? We practically have all the rights that adults do, but no responsibility attached. How great is that? Unfortunately life isn't some game where you can just press "reset". I'm not saying don't have fun, it's just, be responsible.

Sorry I guess this was a rant and an afterschool program rolled into one. Hope I didn't offend anyone, just my opinions and thoughts. Doesn't mean much.

Wetness

Sitting here with my hair wet and tangled waiting to go out to dinner, I have this strange urge to write. I've finally pryed myself away from Spider Solitaire...possibly the most addicting game aside from Tetris. [I'm so glad I haven't found a way to get that on my computer.]

So apparently people want me to write...what a thought. It's like I'm a celebrity. Like William Hung. Maybe I'm just a joke. Atleast my existence has been acknowledged.

Do you ever go through life meeting people that seem to be just so amazingly fascinating? I don't know what it is. Chemical reactions in the brain, a charming personality, a psychic connection [OoOoOoo]. I really don't know. On the outside I treat them just like I treat most of my friends, and on the inside I feel this overflowing feeling of appreciation for their existence.

I may not talk to these wonderful individuals all the time. In fact, for the most part, these types of relationships seem to come at my in intermittent spurts. Kind of like that shining star that pops out through the clouds just often enough to make you go "ahhhh".

It could just be a deep admiration for a certain quality they have. But be on the look out, because you may just be that person. [As a commercial sidenote: Results are not guaranteed. Many will enter, few will win. jk. I got that from that dude who talks real fast after those sweepstake commercials for cereal. but I got it wrong and Ives corrected me]

Happy Days

I feel good. nanuh nanuh nanuh nah!

Wow that week was klazy. Lacrosse games and all that jazz. Senior Harbor Cruise showed people that Senior Class Council does rock. Yes indeed. sorry for those of you who missed it. It was off the heezy fo sheezy. [K. That's the last time I'm saying that]

Life is on the up for now. I guess you could say it can only get worse from here, but I'd rather not think that. I made it into 4 out of 4 of the colleges I applied to. UCSD is my choice. Hands down. Sorry you UCLA fans. I have my reasons, so don't get me started.

So many little good things have been happenning. It makes me sooooooo happy.

Beach with Angela and Meg, beating Torrey Pines, Senior Harbor Cruise, making it into a college that I want to go to, watching good old fashioned hard work come through, seeing my teachers act like students, and the list goes on and on.

I had thoughtful stuff to write, but it fell out of my ears. Sorwwy

I may be small...but that doesn't mean I'm a leprechaun.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!

School is a hazard to your health.

Haitus

Aside from my intermittent nonsense posts, I've taken almost a month-long hiatus. Sorry to my loyal fans. *crickets chirping*

I have a whole ton of stuff that I want to write, or have wanted to write in here, but with lacrosse starting, getting back into ASB again, AP tests just around the corner, and all that nonsense along with my computer being a booger-head, I've been away from this whole pseudo social world of the internet for a while. I've missed some people, due to not being able to talk to them online, since I don't ever see them anyway.

Just in case you didn't realize, but I'm back onto the whole work my tooshie off syndrome. Someone save me from myself. Please. [yes I did say "tooshie"]

Overall though, life is good. Couple of splotches here and there. But sometimes life is like a Monet. Beautiful when you step back and look at it, but just a big mess when you step up close and really look at it. Maybe all this euhporic feeling is just from the good chemicals your body produces when you aren't a lazy bum sitting at home all the time. Who knows?

I'll be back once I get my head above water again. I promise.