Resilience

Death asks, "What is the most amazing thing on earth?"

He answers, "That man continues to hope"

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It's amazing how resilient people can be. Though sometimes pain felt may be sharp and cut deep, one word or moment can change all of that. It's true that wounds take time to heal, but in reality, much of the healing time is determined by the wounded. My friend told me that you will sustain less injuries if you relax and give in to the impact of an oncoming object. Giving in to the impact, I realize now, does not imply weakness, but strength. I have often assumed that by closing myself off to an oncoming issue, I would be able to dodge the problem. Now I realize that facing it and taking the hit can initially make me feel vulnerable, but will ultimately leave me with less pain.

Future who?

In light of all the changes in my life, I've decided to write myself a letter.

Check this out:
Future Me

I played violin for the first time in a long while today. It was more enjoyable than I remember it to be.

run down by the drunken taxicabs of Absolute Reality -Ginsberg

Thought I reached a new plateau in my life where I was comfortable with the way everything was. I should have known at that moment that things would change.

I'm ready to leave. Ready to skip these next two weeks and fly to China.

All this melodramatic nonsense is probably just another way of getting me out of this lull and into something new. Better a quick and painful snap into reality than an agonizingly gradual realization of the truth.

The answer to my problem: get thicker skin.