Check it out kids...

Here's a website by my cousins in Canada:
(Yep that's where all the artistic talent in my family went)
Tim, Howie & Leo

This is the sound of settling...

No one ever wants to settle. But I have a feeling that most of us end up settling in life anyway. You settle with what's comfortable, and you convince yourself that the choices you make are for the better. It's so hard to tell the future, and sometimes I feel like i'm just setting my anchor and watching the swells pass me by. If I trusted fate and knew that fate had good things in store for me, then I could just set my thoughts aside and sail through life.

I feel like I'm at a turning point in my life where I really want to just stop and figure out where I am headed. But it's so hard to isolate myself and look into myself when the rest of the world goes on and blurs by.

Knowing that in every relationship, there is a lack of genuineness in some form or other makes me wonder. We only disclose so much of ourselves to certain people, to the point where we are different people every time we touch base with a different person. And just sometimes, there are people where I wish I could disclose more to, but knowing that it would shatter their sense of who I am, I don't.

Landslide

I love this song.

"I took my love and I took it down
Climbed a mountain and turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
'til the landslide brought it down"
~Landslide, Fleetwood Mac

Matters of the Heart

Every time I feel my heart mend and grow, I feel a bit of heartache and heartbreak right after. I gain a little hope, only to be dragged down by painful realizations.

Sometimes, it's so hard to be truly happy.

(I'm sorry for my kind of emo post...I'm feeling a bit blue right now. Dont' worry, it'll pass.)

I've been asked to post...

I should be finishing something, but I'm not. Like always, I write when I shouldn't. This year has been amazing so far. It's been very different, in the sense that I'm really beginning to feel myself grow. There's this really strong intuition that I've never felt before, and lately I just really want to do some real soul searching. I'm done analyzing the world around me, and I've pretty much made my amends with my past. It seems like all that lack of time to myself in the past has made me feel like I need to really focus on who I am and who I want to become.

The realization that I probably only have this chance to do all these things with my life is daunting. As life continues, there are many more things to enjoy, but in other ways I have less choice over what I can enjoy. Unfortunately, I think that some of our choices in life get narrower and narrower (i.e. career, family), and it feels like these few years will be my last chance to expand and explore what I can do.

There will always be some constants in my life though. Such as who and what I care about. That doesn't change easily.